The deep set desire to make a movie hasn’t left me since I first thought of such a thing 15 years (or more) ago. Even before then I was always thinking of stories, and they usually played out in my head as movies. And at this point in my life I doubt the desire will ever fade from my mind.

If I didn’t attempt to do this now perhaps when I was 65 years old and had a fair bit of disposable income I’d try and mount a film production. But then it would be something that suited my taste in 30 years time. And I’m interested in what old me might have to say by way of flickering images, but I’d also like to see what sort of film 40 year old me and 50 year old me might try and mount.

Now though, with some boundary pushing, things are about right to make a flick I want to make. I’ve written a number of scripts in the past that I would have liked to make, but weren’t feasible due to money (the biggest issue), time or generally not being capable to give a production the type of attention it would have required. And in order to ask others to put in effort I had to be satisfied that those efforts would have a chance at a return on investment for them rather than just a fun experience. The current script and project I think has the potential for a decent ROI (not wholly in the monetary sense).

It ain’t now or never for me, but since I’ve decided to to make it now I’m full steam ahead. And maybe I get to keep on rolling and by the time 65 year old me says ‘action’ on his set it’ll be an old familiar utterance.